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POST HSC

2009-11-04T22:55:00.000-08:00

HEY to people who read my blog
haha..FINALLY HSC IS OVER =)
i am in immense happiness and drooling every now and again just because its over..yeah im CRAZY
but this means yeah i am completely..FREEE
so here i am wasting my free time by blogging teeheeeee

and because i am too happy to think of emo and depressing deep and meaningful stuff well..
firstly i think ill just do a recap of HSC week...weeks?
ENGLISH-
ooft..area of study man...ONE related was EPICLY fail....cuz man so many people were just like WTFFFFFFUGGGLLYYY...because they prepared two and had to scrap it...ie..practically EVERYONE including myself
but then there were those who just CBF or like just didnt read it..so u noe they went ahead
and THEN later that night we found out that those people were absolutely not gna lose marks...I WAS QUITE THE PISSEDDDD because gosh..they shud totally lose marks for not READING THE FRIKKIN QUESTION
and u noe..english is as much about reading as it is about writing..so that was LAME i thought BOOOO T___T
and then MODULES...ok i freaked when i took 43 minutes on my mod A cuz that was my shortest one..and gosh i think it took me a minute to overcome my little panic attack..and then i slapped myself..and it was better..THANK GOD i finished and i didnt really mould my mod c essay to the question but I DONT CARE EH EH EH EH EHHHHH

then..hmmmm what was after...oh thats right

the dreadful maths...haha i exaggerate..although most ppl thought it was death..
4u first up..*sigh..cudve done better but...after checking my answers with terry lee..i didnt feel too bad
but yeah...i guess its better when 4u is hard..u can separate ppl that way...hopefulyl it works out in my favour hahaha
3u...oh i dont rlli noe what to say..since i cant rlli remember it..all i remmeber was that i didnt find it horrible..but it was challenging..and LONG boo

then..BIO..srslee i think we shud haf AT LEAST 2 day breaks in between exam..i hate it how like its one after another..like iuno..maybe cuz i absorb more useful crap when its last minute studying but yea,,, i just think our hsc exam timetable wasnt that great...cuz apparently VANESSA YEN WAH LEE's sister aka natalie had like..no jokes YONKs..i mean weeks in between exams..which is highly unfair..altho id prolli waste my time eating and watching dramas during that time but you get my drift...ITS UNFAIR and i totally agree how we are the guinea pig year..like what the hell..next year theyre gonna have multiple choice in english and maths..LIKE WTF IS THAT so gayyyyy

ok im off on a tangent..but NEXT UP was chemm..i believe this test was my favourite..although i prolli didnt do great..but just after the test..i didnt feel horrible so =) i guess thats good..however, the whole state prolli thought it was good then so LOL we shall see on the 16th dec (*shivers..i dread this day) or whenever it is

PHYSICS..twas quite hard i think...srslee if it wasnt like the last exam idd proli mope around..thank god it was the last exam =) and it prollli didnt help that i only had like 1 hour sleep the day before..cuz i was too excited about it being the last exam haha...im a PSYCHO

ANYWAY enough of that depressing recount of the most depressing and worst weeks of my life hahhaa
after phys..i JUMPED FOR JOY like a puppy in a circus?? and ran circles around the maths block..actually i was just returning my maths past papers...of which i never want to look at EVER AGAIN..haha
oh i shall recount my avid conversation with mr woddhouse
M: hi mr woodhousee...is it ok if i return my past papers??
W: oh melinda...hmm youve stil got alot to return..what exam did u have today?
M: uhmmm..physicss
W: ohh really..so how was the lemonade?
M: ....pardon?
W: the lemonade
M:...it was good?
W: ok thats good
WTF is the lemonade....okk...that kinda sounded better in the moment but yeah...i had no idea what he was smoking...funny guy

haha..ok well after that most exciting escapade..me joanne and kate met up at parra and WENT SHOPPING..bought presents and kates formal dress and shorts (im glad u found what u were looking for kate)
but man...i was so tired i was about to fall asleep as kate was trying on her dress
so then me and kate got picked up by her mum..and i went to kates apartment AND...
PLAYED WITH HER INSANELY CUTE DOGGIE..its called HAPPY
she wanted to call him sunny..except i told her she cant cuz thats gna be MY DOGGIES NAME..and mines gna be a girl dog <333 i cant wait to hold u in my arms like a baby sunny =)

then i just went home afterwards and computered and SLEPT =)

*sigh..and now its todayyy...i cleaned up my two desks which i violently violated with my textbooks and papers and pens gosh...my desk is like clean..and ive chucked out stuff that i dont need or want anymore..and pushed all the useful stuff onto my bros deskk...hahha SUCKS TO BE YOU BRO..not that he will ever read this blog..

ok..things to do:

- GET MY L's finallyy...i booked for a test this saturday..and doing the online testing..im doing pretty well passing with flying colours as usual teeheee xDD
- GET A JOB..i need moneyyy for all my needs...and mostly wants hahaha
- PREPARE FOR SCHOOLIES going to central coast BABY yeahhh =)
- BUY MORE CLOTHES and SHOES..planning to chuck out the clothes i dont want or that dont fit anymore T__T and hopefully my wardrobe will be ...3/4 full...1/4 left for more stuff
- DOWNLOAD MORE MUSIC AND VIDEOS...my poor big bang has been neglected for too long ;) dont worry oppas..im still gna be a fan for life
- TAKE KOREAN CLASSES..cuz im just crazy
- TEACH MY SISTER TO GET SMART..like me tee heee
- get laid..eww just kidding of course xPP
- PREPARE FOR INTERVIEWS
- PLAY WITH FRIENDS =)
- WATCH DRAMAS

thats all for now...as the days go on and the weeks go by..i will think of deep and meaningful stuff that joanne can read and be enlightened by =)

sorry if thsi was super boring..and i shudve spiced it up with a pic..but hafnt taken any due to...HSC

LOVE YOU LOTS <333
xo.

T___T

2009-09-25T22:18:00.000-07:00

RLLI short post
just to rage a bit
I FUCKING LOST MY STUPID UWS REGISTRATION RECEIPT NUMBER FOR UWS
=(
omggggggg..i cant find it anywhere...WHAT TO DO...gahhh..im soo disorganized
T____T i shouldve put it somewhere safe...GAHHH
why am i too stupid for words
!!!!!!
PLEASE REGISTRATION NUMBER TURN UP..turn up within the next 2 minutes =(
that is all
BOOO T___T

BIG BANG

2009-09-18T19:54:00.000-07:00

GOOODDD ~~MORNING~~ afternoon !! hehe <33
so ive established a pattern of italics and then non-italics etc.

todayyy i have been downloading music like crazyy...THERE IS SO MUCH GOOD MUSIC OUT THERE <33 i LOVE LOVE LOVE my k-pop

there is something that everybody noes about me...my one true love is
the one and only BIG BANG

srslee the moment i listened to the song "we belong together" i just knew that i couldn't live without them
hehe..well at least their music

ok so i'll try to keep this as short as possible,, this is kindof my kpop music blog..just because it's so great and makes me very happy to talk about despite the rolling of the eyes that i get from most people (I CAN SEE YOU KATE!!!!)

okok..i noe u guys don't care but whatever WEEEEE
the members of big bang are: g-dragon, TOP, tae yang, dae sung and seung ri <33

my favourite member is TAE YANGGG real name DONG YOUNG BAE...he is just so beautifull..he has the CUTEST smile in the world..his eyes are like puppy dog eyes <33 awww hes so cutee

like how can u not love that <33

anyway..hes only 4 years older than mee =) and he has the most beautiful and sexiest RNB voice

i have 3 posters of big bang, some stickers and TAE YANGS album <33 thanks to my beloved baulko friends on my birthday last year and kate hehe

just naming a few kpop bands/people that i love in order of..lovingness.. wahahhaa>.> hehe

BIG BANGG!!!, 2NE1, SNSD, lee hyori, FT island, son dam bi, KARA, 4minut...YEAA *fangirls/squeals*

hehehe~~~~ i could go on and on..but i won't lolss

a side note: OUR DANCE IS ALMOST COMPLETE!! i am too excited we look good..the boys are doing greatt =)

for chris au:

can you spot me hehe...cuz im just that pimp ;)

*sighhh..year 10 days when they were carefree..and i was the only one stressing about school cert hahaha ><"" missing those days

haha..talking to chris au the other day..when baulko FLOODED at the beginning of year 10

WE GOT SOAKED!!! and the water levels were up to our knees and people like hayden swimming in it hahaha...gross

and we played strip black jack in the room above the auditorium hehe <33 good times

and then there was year 10 at jindabyne..SOOO FRIKKIN COLD omgoodness

and me and jess were bananas hehe

anyway...just cuz it almost feels like the end

LIVE FOR TODAY BECAUSE YOU CAN'T CHANGE THE PAST =)

hehe..anyway..off soon to joanne's house for chem study groupingg hehe ^^ and the med application form filling out *groanss* =( BOOO

post laterr

xX.

"In my head I replay our conversations

Over and over til they feel like hallucinations

You know me? I love to lose my mind

Everytime anybody speaks your name

I still feel the same, I ache inside"

What is love?

2009-09-17T02:14:00.000-07:00

Baby don't hurt me, don't hurt me no more ♫

hehe c:

now onto a slightly more serious note...
what is this that we call "love"?
in our teenage years what would we know...ok maybe for some of us we have experienced this love
what does it mean to love somebody? when u want to spend the rest of your life with them? then why is it that some people take their vows on their wedding "til death do us part" and after a few years, get divorced...
then that "love" didn't mean anything and it doesnt make any sense to me =S

i think that love is very tangible ...and causes so many of us grief
and yet..why do we put ourselves through the misery????
i guess its just one of those inevitable human qualities,, without love how can we exist, how can we learn?

but this teenage drama with love...fills our daydreams hehehe xDD...i believe that it is highly unlikely to last forever
of course there are the exceptions and we can see these obvious exceptions
but really,, what are the chances when there are about a bajillion times the number of the opposite gender in the outside world compared to highschool that u could be interested in eeeshh ><"
we just can't help ourselves thooo hehe

*sighhh
another thing...i know this all sounds u noe emo or whatever "==
but..i was discussing with this person
and they brought up a really good point which i came to dwell on afterwards
why is it that we want something more when we can`t have it?? and when we do get it,, we don't want it anymore,, because we just cbf or we find all these faults that just turns us off??
anyway..i dont really wanna go on about it pretty self explanatory and i`m feeling depressed so i don't give a crap right now

do u know the feeling of being heartbroken? maybe ur familiar with it like mee =( <|3 not just because of boys/girls,, u can be heartbroken over lotsa things..losing something/someone
regrets,, family issues,, getting hurt
it feels like there isnt any air and you just can't breathe..and it really hurts =( and you try to stop those tears flowing,, but its worse when you try to cover up ur hurt cuz it just bursts out and people start asking and make it worse *SIGH
this feeling is just wayy too familiar its not even funny
i dont even know why im talking about this...but anywayy >.>

A SHOUT OUT TO MY SISTER BLOGGG
BELONGING TO NONE OTHER THAT MY BELOVED SPIDDLES!!!!!
READ IT - http://spiddles.blogspot.com/
its great and funnyyyyy <33 and I LOVE THE SPIDDLES!!

♫ I never in my life thought that we end up this way

Cuz I was just so in love with you
And Now it feels so different
Like everything has change
Shorty why cant we talk about it
I don’t know what to do ♫

I love this song <33 cristian alexanda - won't let you go

reading back over this blog..i think that it sounds really stupid..and maybe i shouldn`t...but WHATEVER
i dont give a shit about anything right now

let's not think about these silly issues now..we have LOTS AND LOTS of time before we have to worry...WE DONT NEED WRINKLES
now..just study and get the HSC over and done with and forget about all the bad times
we must remember the best and greatest and funnest of times..those are the memories that matter and willl last forever because you spent with those that you love and that love you

our SUCCESSFUL human pyramid

made at our atheletics carnival

hahaha..everyones dying except joanne and little vannessa at the top

lols <33 great day ^^

omg..btw
this videoo...gave me shivers like...i was just so sad at the end of this video..one of the 9/11 videos...srslee connie showed me this and gawd..i was so speechless by the end of it..makes you appreciate life just that bit more

sorry if this was tedious..i shall write a funny blog next hehehe..i hope ><"
<33
Xx.

JUST DANCE!

2009-09-12T02:46:00.000-07:00

HELLO ALL =)

seeing as i recieved a-many requests to continue..i must fulfill the eager wishes of my loyal readers *snorts* and also my eyes are all better =) WOOT i am quite glad..soooo irritating not being able to read >=(

these days have been quite a bore...with going through papers..and really not getting much work done

luckily i have dance routines to go over and perfect YAY and at present I as well as my fellow dance members are learning *DRUM ROLL*
SNSD's GEE AND GENIE YAYYYYYYYYY...lols even though this aint much of a surprise since some of you have seen the dance..it is a very exciting AND SUPER FUN prospect for me =) heres a pic and vid of the beautiful snsd:
<33

really...my thing is more singing rather than dancing..and i don`t really know how it came to change so at baulko..i remember countless occasions particularly all the recognition assemblies : hillary duff -what dreams are made of, destiny's child - say my name, rihanna - cry and unfaithful..goodness and all of them stuffed up the mics ALWAYS went retarded...or maybe it was just me hehehe xDD
and i almost always cried after all the stupid performances ><""
RAWR

anyway..i just remmebered something from medentry training:

- get a partner
- face them
- draw an e on ur forehead with ur finger

could u read that letter? or was it backwards?

if u cud read it that means that ur partner is not a selfish person, and if u cudnt then they were...and viceversa for u

i remember my partner was chloe, and she drew it so i cud read it, but she cudnt read it when i did
and when the instructor guy told us the point of the activity..all of a sudden i felt very ashamed ><"

and later on i had a conversation with joanne on the train,, and we were both like...oh yeah i never thought i was a selfish person..i mean thinking about how many times we do use the word "i" in our sentences its quite alot =( but then everyone does use it..so it doesnt matter that much

but still...i do admit i am very selfish at times..many COUNTLESS times in fact..but i do like to think of myself (oh dear the selfishness again) as a sharing and caring person and i do care about the people i love - my family and friends =)

but then..maybe that just isnt enough...=( and to be a doctor..i guess u need to think about others more

although that medentry day made me quite ashamed..i really didnt do anything about it
why is it that we can`t change our bad habits? is it just cuz its who we are?? i've been told many times by various people that im selfish, superficial and manipulative..it really hurt =( oh well *sighh

there's a million things which i would love to change about me...and even about others to make them a better person
but its just who we are and thats just life!! and we must live it to the fullest of course and get the best out of it
and u know the saying...you have to love yourself before you can love others =) ^^

well that`s all from me...been practising dance all day...i think this is another short blog

i hope u enjoy it though =)

i love this pic:

actually i just love vanessa's face hehe =)

xx

Happiness??

2009-09-10T04:00:00.000-07:00

So here I am writing my very first EVER blog,, and indeedy I am finding it quite hard =(
It took like...an hour just to set up the music and pictures RAWR annoying much '==

scootilidooing on >=)

high school is almost over =( and these days i find myself remembering random events that happened at baulko and ruse that make me laugh out aloud like an idiot,, usually at my computer and then my parents give me this rlli weird look hehehe xDD

a quote from the OC which i remember vaguely that got me thinking about what happiness really is:
"More than anything I would like to have the happiness that i have now, although what are the chances when we look back there are only a few moments when we were genuinely happy. and of course then we wouldn't have even appreciated them anyway"
not exactly worded right,, but understandable

and truly i agree with this...we can probably pinpoint a few scenes of our lives that made us smile,, but were we really happy?
apparently happiness is defined to be: "state of well-being characterized by emotions ranging from contentment to intense joy"....although i cant disagree entirely and i cant come up with a definition on my own,, i think that this definition sounds like a robot..and obviously happiness is different or everyone

ok so maybe i get rli happy when i do well in exams (*sighhh...i have no life) i noe there is more to life...just havent got there yet ='(...
but minusing exams
i have tried to think of a time when i was experiencing unappreciated happiness...perhaps at year 10 formal...i had always said it was the best night of my life...(haha maybe because i dont have anything to compare it with hehe) surrounded by almost all of my best friends who i love and can depend on..and hopefully they can depend on me too (I MISS YOU) i remember when jess and bek got up on stage and read out their speech for me i almost cried and ruined my makeup =/ <33>

although happy,, going home that night was hard,, knowing that goodbye was just around the corner
and now i am with best friends i can trust and can be happy and be myself around..and i hope this friendship will last a lifetime =)
i guess now that year 12 is almost over...i think we should just appreciate all the time we have now together..AND NOT JIG *coughkatecough*
and hopefully make many happy memories that we can look back upon in the future
make the most of each moment..because you can't relive them =)

short blog? but oh well...i hope its all right for a first try =)